Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Anything is Possible...YAY BOSTON 131-92.

Watching the NBA Finals is like counting down to 12 on New Years Eve. Only more climactic in my opinion. You don't want to blink and risk the chance of missing a good play, you want to see the task to completion regardless of the current state or what else is going on around you.
I just witnessed a serious ass whooping, Boston just stripped Kobe and the Lakers of ALL bragging rights, well I mean they haven't won a championship since 2002, BUT KOBE just won't be getting another ring this year. History repeats itself so maybe they'll lay in the cut 22 years and get another championship in 2022!! You feel me??

When someone says Boston, what comes to mind first is Larry Bird, tighty whities, 8 titles and Rob Parrish, now I'll be saying Kevin Garnett, Ray Allen, Larry Bird, Rob Parrish and annoying Pierce (can't hate though, he stacked up some good points off free throws, HE IS THE MVP).
I can't say I'm a huge basketball fanatic these days that knows every player's average and can sit and watch every game...I left that back in 1997, coincidentally that was when I decided I didn't want to play on the school basketball team any longer so I can gallavant after school. 1997 Bulls won the Championship against Mr. Malone and Utah Jazz, I have to say it was probably one of the best moments I recall ever in my history of following ball...Let me refresh your memories. Series was at 2-2, Game 5 begins, Utah's in the lead, Bulls down by 3, Jordan who was apparently ill the last 2 games of the finals...with like 25 seconds left in the final quarter, Jordan hits a 3 pointer AND PICKS UP A FOUL-TO SHOOT 2!!! 90-88 Bulls win Damn! End result: 5, 5, 5...5 NBA Championship, Jordan's 23 makes 2+3=5, Jordan wins the game for the Bulls with a 5 point play. Damn. Those were the days when I loved basketball when I had no job, no responsibilities but to follow basketball, I still love basketball, but unfortunately I have also discovered other loves during my increase in age. Sheer determination...regardless of how sick he was, it was evident that he had one intention and that was to persevere and win the game to take home the title when leaving Utah. Now, tonight's game was not as nail biting, however Celtics played solid defense and I just knew they were gonna take it home by the end of the 1st quarter! I'm glad that Boston won. KG said it best anything is possible. A team that hasn't won a campionship since 1986,n and back then they were known as THE TEAM due to their 8 straight titles in the 60's and just racking up a total of 16 championships NOW 17 (brap brap!).

What I am getting at is this...Anything can happen if you put your mind to it, stay hungry don't rest, until your satisfied and everyone can see your gains. When I watch basketball, especially in the finals, I get liberated, I'm elated when I see the team that I'm cheering on win. Determination is re-defined and PASSION becomes so lucid, the most uninspired individual can see the result of hard work. I saw Kevin Garnett shed tears of joy to the point he could not even say anything coherent, Doc Rivers held his back and Paul Pierce smiled ear to ear and did his happy dance. I was overwhelmed with happiness, their joy was now contagious and I was beginning to feel as if, I can do anything as long as I have determination and committment by my side (or maybe just the thought of Army brat Ray Allen LOL.) It's not that I didn't know this before, but there's something about a man exuberating such joy and love for one's passion to the point of tears, that becomes a positive reinforcement for a female like myself. Yes, money can always be an incentive (I wouldn't mind making 20 mill Garnett), but they're getting paid to do what they love and I for myself would not want it any other way either. I guess I'll see how long this dose of positivity will hold up for me to keep pressing on. When I reach my goal in life, I will let you all know and I expect to have a keg full of Gatorade waiting for me.

Trying to stay hungry...

Shout outs:
-Paul Piece congratulations to him on obtaining MVP.
-Ray Allen for lacing the court with all those 3 tied a record tonight.
-Garnett the spotlight was on you for rebounds and 26 Points with your boy Ray Allen.
-Rondo 6 steals...ooh wee...What? You stole from Kobe?...1 steal short of tying a record.
-DoC Rivers...your first Championship.

A.L.S.O- Kobe I saw you turning up your lip...DOn't hate, congratulate...No Gatorade for's all on the floor.

B.U.T-Gasol now that the games over...GET A SHAVE, CUT YOUR HAIR OR PULL IT look greasy.

N.O.T.E-Odom take it easy, don't get so mad..either you get fouled and miss the basket or get blocked and miss the basket...Boston's not having it...they're on a mission.

*Boston what was for dinner?...LAKERS "STRIPloin" with some bubbly on the side.

Here's the video pick, dedicated to Boston...(I pick some reaaal cheesy stuff I know.) We all know I was probably gonna pick this...

Monday, June 16, 2008

HAS Canada Gone mad...and Boston!

**DISCLAIMER...The following views are those of StAR and it is not intended to make anyone feel below par, especially MuchMusic, or looked upon as me bashing, but more of an incentive to step your game up...remember though...who's StAR her opinions might just not matter.** my homegirl Sharheezy said is worst than, good ol' B.E.T when it comes to reruns...Didn't the MMVA'S finish at 10:59? Replayed by 11:02pm. There is nothing exciting about the MMVA's, everything you THINK will be interesting turns into a disappointment. I would like to address the current weather situation first...What the heck does the crowd smell like?...After waiting outside for a good spot, since 10AM this morning. Last time I checked it rained a few times today, not kosher AT ALL, nor does the thought of anyone standing beside me not smelling righteous sit with me. I like the outdoor concept of the MMVA's but it's getting a little played. The MMVA's are mediocre and they need to step their game up. Point form here were go...
-Why interview all the presenters? With the crowd going wild, you can't hear them anyway so don't bother?
-OMG?!?! BELLY THE GODFATHER OF CANADIAN HIP HOP?....GIVE ME A BREAK...Then I'm the next Quincy Jones! whack...Whack...WHACK!!! Forgot his name and it doesn't matter after his intro for Belly, but that VJ needed to get reprimanded for saying such a statement...that's a direct diss to all the other Canadian Hip Hop Movers and Shakers.
-Akon were you lipsynching?...your HOOK!?!? I love KARDI, but cut back on the hypeman movements, give it to Solitaire in the back. I couldn't enjoy the song.
-Based on the choreographed nonsense of the dancers and artists...How much notice was given to them on their MMVA performance?
-Hedley looks similar to Ben Stiller in "The Heartbreak Kid". The scene where he tried to get back in the U.S. after losing his stuff in Mexico. LMAO. Maybe he did look proper but got soaked from the rain trying to walk the red carpet. Hmmmm?
-Back to the choreography...Girlicious! I swore I saw these moves for a whole season on your show, why were you still not on point?!?
-Rihanna..."Ahhh here comes the Whack....Word up, don't sing no crap you bore me, wanna grab my feelin' lazy? yeah hold it for me!" (Thanks for lending me your line Craig Mack.) Booooring...Just take a bow off the stage.
-Yeah we get it....CANADIAN GIRLS ARE THE BEST!!
-DID the videographers not get all access passes??...I SEE, there's a lot of people there, but I CAN'T SEE THE PERFORMERS!!!

-New Kids...or should I say...OLD KIDS ON THE (QUEEN & JOHN) BLOCK!! I got excited, then cried! I don't know what was worst...THE DISSIPATED dance moves or Joey's attempt at singing..."Please don't go girl" Your summertime single?? For an album dropping in September? I really, really hope Chris Brown does them all some justice, as I hear he is doing some song writing for them. Nostalgia saved me from writing those guys off completely....NKOTB did not have the RIGHT STUFF! Donnie...why you gotta say...she was looking for a dude from SCARBOROUGH?
ALSO...DO...HOLLA A TIMBALAND (Everyone else seems to!!) I love you Donnie, but I love MARK better. You don't see him trying to do a come back for Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch......or will he???

Best thing about the MMVA's were the clear umbrellas...I want one...OH the jokes too.

-KOBE!!! AHHHH, I could slap you for that steal from Pierce! I was hoping you'd trip and the ball roll out of bounds. Good hustle tho--on your part Kobe.
-16 Points...JUST off comment Pierce...hmmm good game...*yawning....* sleep time.
-HOUSE...WE COULDA USED YOUR 3 POINTER MAYBE 45 SECONDS EARLIER BUDDY, we coulda had a chance at overtime or maybe a 1 point win!


Anyway....based on the MMVAs, my quote...MEDIOCRE PLANNING AND EXECUTION BRING MEDIOCRE RESULTS!! Maybe next year MMVAs **shaking head**

A video...some Nostalgia fo yo ass...This is how Please Don't GO girl should have sounded

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Stay HUNGRY but make BUSINESS ur daily vitamin.

Another nice motivating statement from Jom Rohn's Ezines...this one came at like 12pm though. LOL. It said....Stay hungry, and make no your daily vitamin...I switched it up to fit the topic.

If I wasn't so tired, I would've wrote this last night.

I was listening to the real freqs like I do weekly, def-E-NITE-Ly Monday Nightly with my girl Tiff, and all I have to say is this...The show was straight heatery like Arcee would say...peep the blog... Watch out for the podcast later on this week, normally around Thursday. Famous (It's the KIIIIIIID!) was in the building last night, amongst the jokes and the freestyling he put down, definitely one of my favourite Episodes last night. Peep this...WWW.THEKIDFAMOUS.COM...Here's an example of passion tied with an effective business strategy. The way I see it, the minute you decide to make a profit off your passion, whether it be rapping, djing, it becomes a business and after tonight's show and the Stylus DJ events that took place last weekend-the conference in particular...Toronto aritst, yall need to step your game up and keep stepping it up. Learn the business side of this industry and TAKE constructive criticism, don't take it as anyone trying to knock you, shit...this is your city and my city, no need to put that whack stuff out and make us ALL look bad. Ya feel me? A little late but....damn...better late than never. I was helping out at the Stylus Spinfest that happened back on May 30th to June 2nd. During the conference..."It's starts with the dj" there were a few things that were mentioned, the most important thing that I want to mention that was the most effective part of the conference was this. You spend time in the studio, you pop out mixtapes, you expect deejays to play it because it's "homegrown" BUT just because it's "homegrown" are we to overlook the mediocrity of the material I think not! A lot of artists trying to take this music thing to the next level need to understand that there's more to it than just sitting in your basement studio or just a studio, trynna make shit that you think people will bump forget about the whoooolle professionalism involved, the business of aspect of marketing and branding yourself and your music. Be consistent and current....I'm waiting on certain things to drop...kinda like the west coast BEEN waiting on Dr. Dre's Detox. I do understand that it's hard, especially in Toronto. The below scenario is an example of why some people trying to get into this music industry think it's hard or even fail.

So I'm trying to setup for the next set of panelists coming out at the Stylus Dj conference the Saturday a guy taps me on the shoulder and says this..."Yo, I see your part of this...(duh my shirt says event staff...) hold on to this and let me know what's good...I want you to check this out..." He proceeds to handing me a about I holla back at that wooden table and leave it there...I was taken aback by his approach so I didn't even look at what was given to me, sorry to say I left it on the table backstage, reason: lack of professionalism, if you don't take pride in how you present yourself, what makes me think your music is gonna be any good/better? I didn't know if he was the producer or the mc, or just maybe a guy doing some promoting for his homeboy. This is a topic that can go on and on, but I rather not, it gets too complex, everyone has their own opinion...blah, blah, smah smah....but that's my 2 cents to let you know, I'm not an industry cat trying to sell my records, I'm a girl on the outside looking in. Like the title says..Stay HUNGRY but take some BUSINESS vitamins increase your knowledge in order to stay focus. Business and marketing plans should still exist for those who "rap". Do your research, A PROFESSIONAL MANNER, SO PEOPLE CAN TAKE YOU SERIOUSLY. This doesn't only go for artists though, this goes for anyone on a serious grind to make something of themselves. Peace!


These are the homegrown tracks that stick out to me randomly within the last year or 2. This is my list, so critics keep your comments to yourself. I personally think they all have a different sound that works for them.

1.) Loudmouths-I'm the boss (You all know about this on my ringtone and in the ride.)
2.) Sox-Hope (No comment, it hits me hard.)
3.) Tona-Dial Tone, Don't Holla
4.) Rochester-Pull Up, Priceless, I'm ready
5.) Brassmunk Album-Repo! Music & Magic
6.) BBL Album--Now that summers around the corner....I'm creeping slow again.
7.) Kardinal Offishall-E.G.G.
8.) Point Blank-Born and Raised in the Ghetto, God Only knows
9.) Mathematik-Righteous
10.) Mayhem Morearty-Smoke Clears

Of addition to above...
Sox- 29-9-9
Famous-Big Mon ting, 4th Biggest city, *Kid trynna make it...(heard it for the first time on freq's last night....damn...shouts out to Mayhem and Blake, I'm loving this track.)
Jd Era-Paper Chase
Luu Breeze-Break em off

**Disclaimer....Don't hate me if a song didn't make the cut!! It's late night, I just wrote what came to mind, I'll probably be cussing tomorrow when I realize I left something off. Oh well...don't sue me....please?

A.L.S.O-For u Boots Johnson...Disclaimer (2) Please forgive me for any spelling or grammatical errors, that might have caused you to stutter and re-read a line more than once!!!**

Quote of the day...It should be nothing to you if you love it and do it with passion. -Famous said something to affect last night.

If you didn't already know....

Enjoy the Videos....

Big Mon Ting!

Ayah ft. Tona-Pusha Man

Monday, June 9, 2008

Where you at...Mr. Chivalry?

Can I just say....YAH! I'm loving this weather...Life is good, right now. SO I've started this new shift at work I'm now working 9-5pm like most normal people that work in fancy buildings and I must say, I'm loving it. Can you believe I Stacey-StAR make it to work at 8:40....Not 8:50 or 9:40 but yes, 20 minutes before my shift!!! I'm not really a late kinda person, if I really wanna do something I can be on time, but lets just say the change of shift also caused a little paradigm shift and I'm looking at things from a whole new perspective. Anyway, my homegirl H.G. just came back from Florida and as she was telling me about her trip-she....sidebarred...and had this to say...."Toronto MEN are F*in Asses (I say that due to the larger amount asshole movements than nice ones)" and I thought about Ians Andre Espinet's blog a few months back, then I thought about my incidents on the weekend. I had this to say to her..."I KNOW RIGHT?" Anyway, she went to Florida that is comparable to T.O. to a CERTAIN extent, beaches and weather is mostly what it has going for it. On many occasions I've experienced the benevolence of other men when I've travelled, most recently the Foot Locker worker in B-Lo that hooked me and my bestfriend up with a WHOLE HEEP of Jolly Rancher jelly beans, by asking us..."You guys dig jelly beans?" It was small but it was thoughtful. Chivalry exists!! Just lacking in Toronto. Could it be that the men here are just used to us?? While when we go to other places, they just know that we're tourists?? or...or? or?? screwface capital just has some real dudes that are just straight selfish. Here's my examples of the asshole movements...

Situation #1-AS HOT AS club PERIDOT was on Saturday at 2000 TILL I swear this will be the last time I talk about the sweltering heat up in there. Check the scenario like I was Tribe...I was jamming to some Kanye that Dj P+ was puttin' down, trying to fan myself with my hand and prevent myself from passin' out. I had gotten real dizzy earlier staring at this dude in plaid shorts giving the crowd a run to Movado like it was 2003? what? He must've been locked up...Elephant man, Pon De River...soooooo 5 years ago!! I shimmy over to the bar and I spot a fan, but who would've known because this guy was standing directly in front of it. Anyway I passed him and went to the bar to grab a bottle of water, so on my way back to the other side, I PURPOSELY passed back his way and stood there for a minute dancing, all bumped the man on his shoulder...can you believe it?? Dude didn't even budge, so I continued to watch the dude bask in the cool breeze of the industrial fan. So I say out loud, DAMN IT'S HOT IN HERE U MIND SHARING THE FAN?!?!?! I know he heard me. What does he do? Steps back in the fan, almost hugging it to let me pass by! WHA DI ASS?? That's was straight mean. I watched him monopolize the fan for a good 10 minutes from across the room. I'm still upset thinking about it...a nice guy would've saw the sweat just shining on my arm and responded to my plea for cool air and give me some of the fan. I wasn't asking you to buy me a drink homie, I WAS ASKING FOR A LITTLE BREEZE!!

Situation #2- I went by my homeboys house, but I'm walking in with my suitcase of a purse, some Dominion bags (Don't get it twisted ain't shopping for him, I needed my own snacks, everyone knows MOST single men never have shit in their fridge and cupboards.) and a whole bunch a CDs that were in my car to give to him. I struggle through the entrance of the building. In the lobby there's a guy waiting for someone to answer the buzzer and let him in, but I have a key (once again, don't get it twisted, when we broke up I never gave it back, and we're just tight like that, he's my homie, not lover, but just a friend.) The gentleman continues to hold onto the door, turns around and acknowledges I have a key, so I STRUGGLE to get the Key into the door and he's watching me...alright cool, didn't think anything of it, maybe he didn't wanna overstep his boundaries by maybe holding a bag or taking the key, he probably thought that maybe I woulda thought that he was trying to rob me, who knows?! The point is I STRUGGLED to open the door with cds tucked under my arm, bags tearing off my wrist. I open the door and you would not believe what this guy does...instead of maybe holding the door so I can get through, or little ladies first typa thing...I pull the door open and he SQUEEZES PAST ME, STEPPING OVER MY FOOT that's on the frame of the door...biggest diss was the LACK OF THANKS. WTF?!?! UNBE...F*IN...LEIVABLE. I step into the elevator, with him...I sigh, HE SAYS.."Thanks for opening the door..." I just say Yeah nonchalantly. I swear I coulda took my bags and swung them at his head!


B.U.T--Shout outs to all the nice guys I know, even the ones that have a little more selfishness than they should, I ain't hating, cause I don't ask for much....hmmm maybe that's the problem. Us woman have grown accustomed to the way certain men are in the city so we won't call them they continue with this whack ass behaviour and don't feel the need to step their game up. Who cares if they call you miserable, I'm sure if you say what you gotta say they'll take it into consideration. I don't care call me miserable. My sarcasm does hold truth, I give u a chance through sarcasm to do the right thing, but if you still don't get the hint, either I call you out, or I don't mess with cha, cause ur not worth the time.

A.L.S.O--Nice guys....come out, come out, come out, wherever you are........

N.O.T.E--And you wonder why I'm still single, the dating game is a joke...CAUSE I SPEND MORE TIME CUSSING AND NIT PICKING...than trynna get to know a man, either my expectations are too high or kindness and consideration levels are too low on his part...hmmm, in my books the only way to go is up so....step ya game up...cause I'm not stepping into your land of mediocrity.

Disclaimer...I'm not bitter. Don't look into this too deep and think we wanna get wine and dined or have men kiss the ground we walk's the little things that make us FEEL like women. The Hiyahs, hellos and how are yous, if we make eye contact in the clubs or on the streets...the drive safes after the clubs if you ask for my number and I DON'T give it to you, or damn when you see me sweating lookin' like imma bout to pass out the....ARE YOU OK?!?!? Damn. General convos without the mention of my butt so I feel like the conversation will have some substance, not me automatically copping attitude cause you're already mentioning my physical attributes.


Thursday, May 22, 2008

Why are you over there looking at me....HATER?!?!

Yesterday I was talking to my boy and he mentioned money makes the world go ‘round so I told him, I beg to differ. In StAR’s crazy world I think HATERS MAKE THE WORLD GO ‘ROUND. Let me elaborate: If you’ve ever seen the movie Inside Man with Clive Owen and “My Man” himself Denzel Washington, then you are familiar with this partial quote-“RESPECT IS THE ULTIMATE CURRENCY.” This was said at the end by Clive Owen’s character. It came to mind as I sat talking to him staring at the Inside Man DVD case sitting on my window seat. You can have all the money in the world but if no one likes you or respects you, what’s the point? You’re just a damn slot machine that either gets cussed at, banged up or sweet talked then hoodwinked for your riches! So how does this tie into the whole topic of haters? Simply, the more people hate, the harder you try. You surpass them and leave them with their self inflicted pain of envy/jealousy and YOU end up being successful, recognized and therefore being RESPECTED by many more people for your effort and perseverance. Making something out of yourself! This is a classic example of turning negative into positive. Don’t get me wrong everyone cops a little “haterism” sometime, I mean I’m hating on the chick who was bubbling all over Usher during his performance on Dancing With The StARS, or some of those kids on My Super Sweet 16! Everything else…it makes no sense hating cause I can most likely do something about it. Anyway I’m talking about the all day, everyday hater, the hater with no justification. When I use the term HATER-I’m not only referring to those that build up jealousy towards another, I’m also talking about the doubtful skeptic and the overly excessive critics. If you don’t know someone personally and never have…what are you hating on? They say the happiest people with the biggest smiles on the outside, can sometimes be the ones with most trials and tribulations inside. So what are you jealous of? Don’t bother hating because you’re on the outside looking at what an individual cares to show you, especially materialistically…YES! He drives a 5 series BMW, BUT did you know to maintain his car it’s half his monthly income and his other bills might all be delinquent? If you and I were friends-we once were on a personal level, so you might’ve known my every move and what I aspire to do, why you criticizing my movements guy?!?! Once again…HATER what are you hating on? DON’T HATE CONGRATULATE!! LOL. Put down the HATERADE need a cheap mediocre drink…buy some KOOL-AID (random, it rhymed!) I’m accumulating and investing my respect vouchers very wisely…cashing 1 here or there inconspicuously. Hehe. Ultimately having a goal of being a highly regarded, respected chick , who started out on the Jane strip (Holla my peoples!! Jokes.)! In the end everything that I choose to do as a person is to better myself, to maintain a LEVEL of RESPECT amongst the others that I also respect, and teach a lesson to those that should be giving respect. Don’t have something to say unless you have a more efficient alternative to improving what I am aspiring to do. How true is it to say that you are only hating because I have what you fail to achieve and I am what you cannot be. People! Spend less time focusing all that negativity and putting excess energy into grudging people for who they are what they have and start honing your own skills, so that you too can be a respectable person. Learn to tolerate who are, so that everyone else can tolerate you, however some people just don’t have it so they will always be playa hating from the sidelines…and you my hater over there, will be my key to obtaining success and getting the respect that I deserve. Hating is the sincerest form of flattery…I’m flattered.
Peace out, see you at the top...hopefully!

A.L.S.O--You say ur addicted to weed, hell i'm addicted to cheese...trynna cut that shit out, like I did the meat...I flow with such ease, when I should be asleep.......and CUT! (I'm such a clown and I LOVE it.)

QUOTE OF THE DAY: George Washington Carver “Fear of something is at the root of hate for others, and hate within will eventually destroy the hater.”

TRACK OF THE DAY: First thing that came to mind...Haha, some LAAAZZZZZZZY MASE. Sleeping while trying to do a one, two step!

Thursday, May 15, 2008


From being a trill B*t&h with Rick Ross to Dreaming out Loud with One Republic…I can be a Hip-Rock-Reggae-Soul-Hop kinda woman. I’m pretty well rounded and my day to day relationships with friends/acquaintances look just like my itunes library.
I consider myself to be a cool girl…I mean I can get down with the homies, but then throw down in the mall to help a few girl friends find banging ensembles. I think I give pretty good advice, relationship or just playing the bootleg “life coach.” Although most of my friends would say I think like a man, hmmm, I never really understood that nor do I agree that I have “a man’s mentality”. I have one girl friend who thinks I always seem to agree with her fiancé more than I do with her. LOL. I wouldn’t necessarily say I think like a man…I believe I tend to go with the more simplistic dealings. I just don’t use as much brain power or try to rationalize the irrational, which men also choose not to do. That’s just me being easy going and looking at situations from a different point of view, where both parties could be considered right. LOL. Mutable or versatile is what most people would call me because I’m down to earth and cultured. That’s nice to know, but it goes deeper than that…I fight a constant battle…HOMEGIRL Syndrome. Yes that’s right, I’m sure you all could probably guess anyway. I didn’t fully understand it until now. Exhibit A “I just love chillin’ wit you, you’re like one of the HOMEBOYS!” Exhibit B “We’re too much alike, you’re too good to be true, something must be wrong with you. We get along like me and my BOYS!” Wait a second, aren’t both exhibits samples of what would be contained in the recipe for a healthy, open, communicative relationship? Especially, when it’s someone that you might potentially be interested in or would like to be in a committed relationship with? I guess not. I’m sorry my eyes light up when I see a gaming console or I give criticisms on a real deal, no sugar coated watered down opinions, can keep the “brotherhood code” and not mess up my boy’s game. I know I’m not rough and rugged looking, so how does a girl like me get passed being looked at as the homegirl? My answer to my own question is this: I don’t. Instead-what is to happen is the following…that guy, “the one” finds me. For the moment, until he comes along, being the homegirl is how I have power over-in determining who I choose to date. I change for no one. The way I see it, if any of the above statements are mentioned and I’m interested in an individual and those are his excuses for not taking it to the next level…he’s just not ready. Plain and Simple. He might just be intimidated by me because I’m not easily fooled. He’s really only setting me up good for the next dude (hopefully Mr. Right) the one I know so well, it’s impossible for him to lie to me, we think like each other-like our brains are on the same wave lengths, I feel what he feels and vice versa, we can have long deep conversations and most of all he TRUSTS me. Not really his loss for breaking the news to me, I mean we can still be cool…I understand, don’t think you’re hurting my feelings and killing my self-esteem. Everything just ain’t for everybody, and he clearly was not for me in that way. It just makes me realize that I am damn near close to perfect! Haha. I just gotta wait on my counterpart to find me. Also being the homegirl, helps me keep my standards real high, like right up in the nose bleeds, it allows me to be picky as hell, with men trying swing talks my way. I frown no more on being the homegirl, I raise my head high and feel proud that I can relate and avoid being bamboozled. I vent to my boys when girls just wouldn’t understand, hear the females and their mistakes so I don’t have to repeat AND lessen my chances of becoming involved in anything named drama! I can’t and will not dumb it down to be just A girl.
Of course, out with a track…oh so fitting as well, see videos below. Peace!

P.S. Does anyone own R. Kelly's 12 play album without a crack in it? Did you like me get tired of lending it out and having to just spot it when you went to check a friend?

A.L.S.O Does R. Kelly ever listen to his old stuff to maybe get back the definition of real R&B?

S.E.E. Keenan Ivory Wayans used to be the shit, where'd he go?? I loved his show for the brief moment it was this day...I'M GONNA GIT YOU SUCKA is one of my favourite movies.

from IMDB.Com

Rib Joint Customer: Ya got any soda? Hammer: One dollar. Rib Joint Customer: Aw, c'mon, now! Look out for a brother, man, c'mon, yeah. Check this out: why don't you let me get a sip for fifteen cents? Hammer: My cups cost more than fifteen cents! Rib Joint Customer: All right, fuck the cup. Pour it in my hand for a dime!

1 more!

Cheryl: Well, after you left, he started getting into drugs and stuff. Things got really bad when he... Jack Spade: Well, what? Cheryl, come on! Cheryl: He started wearing gold chains, Jack. Jack Spade: Oh, God, no!


Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Setting the mood with...Gotta Get Mine-Infinite ft. Divine Brown

As my Blackberry goes off at 6:04 am, my daily inspirational go-getter email comes in from Jim Rohn…Subject: CAN YOU REALLY GET ANYTHING YOU WANT OUT OF LIFE? ANYTHING? The answer: YES, It is possible for you to get anything you want out of life. Anything. But there’s just one problem. Usually…SOMEONE ELSE HAS IT, AND YOU HAVE TO CONVINCE THEM TO GIVE IT TO YOU!

I’ve realized that I’m not the only one who currently is in this F everything mood, wanting to just change everything from job to lifestyle. I thought about it last night-When I don’t have a job, I seem to stress less about how my bills are going to get paid and where is money coming from when the savings account has gone dry. Right now I’m between a rock and hard place because I have put myself there, and like a child who crawls between the coffee table and couch sitting, contemplating, which way to use to get out. Here I sit confined between a job I dislike (my coffee table) and my passion (my couch, my comfort.) I could quit my job, break it to my parents to get a cussing, with their old school mentality they just wouldn’t understand what I meant by me following my passions-although there would be no immediate monetary gain. I’m still wondering what will be that push for me, in reference to Jim Rohn…Is it my boss GIVING me my pink slip? Or me just sitting at my desk one day with the usual headache I get daily when I step into work and smell corporate politics and the bullshit of shadiness...then just saying…I QUIT, keep my mags and notepads, I’ll take the coffee cups! Then I snap back to reality and say it’s not that easy…I’m not gonna lie, I haven’t learned to make certain sacrifices as yet…like not buying shoes, seeing the latest movies by myself, eating out, damn going out. Sometimes I think if I ate meat again would that solve the problem, I mean my grocery list would be chopped by like 75%! Money saved. Anyway, I got up real early this morning with Scrabble on the brain as I continue my quest on beating my homeboy P Plus in a game. It’s not that I suck, I mean Scrabble and Scattegories are my favourite games I just didn’t think I would find my match, this son of a gun P Plus who keeps beating me…like creeping up on me….slow kill…beating me…simply because great minds think a like, I guess…(no not really haha). Before I get carried away with Scrabble…I’m actually ready for work, sitting here…writing…waiting for time to run out slowly, before I check into day prison like some kind of criminal. My crime…holding passion and love hostage, conspiring in every aspect, taking advantage/abusing time, being a prodigal, indulging/participating in the underground society of shoe fiends. I guess I have to serve my time until I get my scared straight experience. Do you remember the scared straight video series back in middle school?? Damn, kids would probably laugh at that shit now, or recognize a friend or cousin, it’s a shame. Life is not meant to be figured out at times it seems, especially now. Time, time, time, everything happens with time, well either time is moving too fast or I’m moving too slow and in dire need of stepping my game up. Whatever it is…I’m trying my damn hardest to make myself happy and do what I want…and I will get there. Leave this peoplesoft/ceridian payroll thing behind unless I’m doing it for myself, the daily nag of someone delegating a task to me, not because they are overwhelmed with work, but to hide the fact that they REALLY don’t know what they're doing. Well the change starts with me, right now, I’m off to get what belongs to me from someone, something. It starts with one thing…ME BEING ON TIME FOR WORK, since I’m walking on thin glass with tardiness. Don’t get it twisted though, if I loved my job, I would be on time everyday, it’s just the 30 minutes it takes for me to contemplate if today is the day I walk in there and grab my blue mountain box and say…SEE YA NEXT LIFETIME….well today is not the day, I’m out. PEACE!!!

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